Do I have the right to attempt to change what is seen as "wrong" in my eyes? Don't I make mistakes as well? Don't I have thoughts and actions that are "undesirable" to others?
Then why try and change things?
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
I have always thought little of myself, as a person of no achievements and ongoing failure of plans, that is if they ever initiated. However, in that self-loathing dogma I believed I had maturity in my thoughts.
One of my negativities that I could easily say “I hate myself” that it became a routine whenever I made a small mistake that no one cared about, not even me. And one of the other routines I did was examining the mistakes of those close ones. Hypocritically, I found myself to have done the same mistakes, the mistakes that sometimes have repulsed me. My surprised reaction was believing and saying “I became what I hate”.
This loop of error and realization continued, as I assure you it will continue, and took a new form today. For today I took a peak through this loop and saw how many times it was repeated , that a large sum of myself was built from the reoccuring parts of different mistakes which eventually evolved from “I became what I hate” to “I hate myself”